30x40 resin coated acrylic/ mirror/ glitter/ rhinestone/ resin. Ready to hang. 

So many people have so much information and I read yesterday that for some people, the only personality trait they have is their perception of superiority. But not her. To me there is love in everything she does. The way she moves, and talks, and what she doesn’t have to say.

In Egypt when so many complained about the food or the way other people were upsetting them, she floated around booking her massages and asking the servers for her special items. They all tended to flock to her, thrilled to get her whatever she needed as she smiled and joked with everyone that joined her. She wore an emerald green dress that day, and a large brimmed straw sun hat. I felt like a tiny little fish in a giant unfamiliar tank on that side of the world, but she took the time to show me how to put the food together so it would taste the best. 

She took me to her favorite vendor way at the end of the biggest market late at night in Egypt, through tunnel like alleys and past all of the elaborate decked out camels. I bought a Sekhmet and Isis statue. They still sit on my shelves in my art studio today. To me they represent the way she took the time to show me an extremely foreign place with a love and attention that made it an adventure, not a fear. 

In Las Vegas, I was terrified of singing and dressing up a certain way and being put on a stage in a required color. She sat patiently with me, alone in a room as I cried about feeling so defective, and so separate from all of the joy and excitement around me. She didn’t tell me what that was. She didn’t suggest how I should be. She only reminded me that in Novmber, we would go to the Sekhmet temple in Beatty. 

The love is always the message. The adversity is also the message and getting wrapped up in the details of comparing different aspects of the same information is effortless, time consuming, and irritatingly human. But I let go of all of that information. I let go and ran. “Creating art is my self realization, I need to put things out into the world not study things.”

I’m still not so sure about all of that, or if I made the right decision. But I know a perfect channel when one is in front of me, and I have retained enough of The Course to know that if something is in front of me, it is because that is what I have created. Good, bad, ugly, ecstatically blinding, or profound and glittering  

It’s been a few years but she floated into my art studio this week, all the way to San Diego from a New York winter, like no time passed. With the same warmth. The same smile. The same reminder that “It’s all good, and if it isn’t good yet, it isn’t over.”

This mega watt canvas representing light and alignment was drying in the other room. Before our visit, I was committed to the concept of this painting representing the way that every angel was first a ghost. So maybe this painting, my very first of 2024, the year that I woke up with an entire first draft of my memoir complete -  is a instead a portrait of the peace, alignment, light and ascension that is all around and available to us at any moment that we make the decision to experience it.  The perfect channel.