20x24 premium frame - acrylic/ canvas/ mirror/ resin/ glitter. Ready to hang.
The first edges of light in the dark are always the brightest.
We were able to grab a few things and head out into the night, driving Starlight through the desert to Tecopa.
We rented a trailer out in the desert, with the worst bed either of us has ever slept in. It was practically a hammock. In the full moon we went into the hottest hot spring on the property and floated around for a few hours.
After that I cooked us a frozen pizza in the oven. We sat on the very edge of the remote desert, wrapped in blankets together, looking up at the stars dazzling in the sky.
Sure the dark all around us was the darkest dark of the desert there could possibly be.
That dark made the stars shine so bright. That dark made the pizza I was eating taste like the best pizza on the planet at that moment. That dark brought me closer to my husband as we huddled together eating. I knew how dark it was out there into the vastness of nothing. It taught me the true depth of the gifts that I was growing into living out.
They say that the only way to truly learn anything is to learn first experience the pain of its absence. As one by one, everything in my life seemed to come to me so eloquently, so beautifully, so powerfully, I couldn’t help but wonder.
Was this healing? Was this love? Was this what I was supposed to learn after all?
I didn’t know. But for the first time I felt safe about not knowing what I didn't know yet.
This painting is a portrait of balancing the deep dark pools of pitch black with the salvation of light, true and absolute.