When I was a little kid my favorite thing to do was dive down as deep as I could go in water. I loved it so much because I could feel the silence. I felt safe there I guess. Away from the noise, from the world. I guess being deep underwater always represented a peace and quiet to me that I have yet to find anywhere else. These days the more I grow into my spirit the more the water is still a sacred sanctuary to me.
Much like your home. Of course, I wanted to use every color I had. Because I believe you have put every aspect of yourself that you have into making your new home a perfect place. Away from the noise. Away from the world. Building your own world, together.
I never knew how to snorkel. Up until last year I would exclaim “I WILL NOT have my head under water with something pinching my nose!!” At some point in my life all of my little fears and traumas were somehow taken out on water. I couldn’t go in. That's why I moved to the ocean. To heal that fear. In a way the ability to go into a large body of water where I can’t see the bottom has always represented the healing and wholeness returning to my spirit.
We decided to go snorkeling at La Jolla cove last year. I was afraid but determined. I remember clearly sitting down in the sand. Trying to get my fins on. Struggling with my mask. A huge wave came and swept me out. I was so frustrated and annoyed I wanted to just go home. I almost gave up. I figured it out though, got everything on. Went under water.
Never, for the rest of my life will I forget that feeling. The silence made everything seem brighter, more vivid. The blues, the yellows, the dark parts. Everything was extra illuminated. It was one of the best experiences I’ve ever had. The sea has always felt like my home. When I was a little girl we would visit the water once a year. I would always cry when it was time to go home. How could I miss something so big? How could it be so far from me?
Fast forward a few years. I just got home from Egypt. I spent most of my time in the Red Sea. I was so excited Johan & Joey to come home and create this for your home because I knew that all of the magic of that trip would still be fresh and I would be able to share it. We went out on this yacht. Like nothing I’ve ever seen it was so beautiful. When I purchased my fins I felt like Cinderella with glass slippers because he gave me a sea foam green pair at random (my favorite color.)
The water was so crystal aqua green against copper hills and a bright blue sky. Looking down through my goggles the aqua green turned to a deep aqua blue as I looked down as far as my eyes could see. There were hundreds of different neon fish of every pattern and color. I saw a giant white stingray a hundred feet down. He had blue spots and was burrowing in the sand.
I felt so at peace with the silence. At one with the colors. At home with the depth. I know that your choosing and use of colors for your new home has been of the utmost importance to you. I know you have selected so many things in so many ways to create your own comfort of an immaculate home, and I have no doubt that you will succeed.
I am so far from building or even owning my own home. But it has been an honor to go through this process with you. Thank you for being my friend and a person I trust completely. Thank you for being so excited to hang something this large of mine in your brand-new home. Thank you for reminding me what home means to me, and allowing me to so freely express that.
I am grateful to, through you, be reminded of the illumination and depth of what home means. Because to me, home is a place that can never get too deep. I hope every time you see this art you are reminded of the illumination you have brought into the life of not just me but so many others. You and Joey can make any place feel like home.
It’s just who you are.